I probably should stop doing this at some Point.

But it's I feel a slightly more productive use of my time than well nothing...So here goes.

Does media set you up for failure ?

If you can think of any aspect of life that media hasn't already acquired an angle on then you are by far more intelligent than me. Media has basically just written book telling near enough everybody listening (weather they meant to be or not) What their sex and love life should be like, how they should dress, how they should exercise and eat or not eat in various cases, how they should bring up their kids, decorate their house, right down to how to do their gardening.

And all I can gather from this is that some people either, have no compassion for other people or way too much time on their hands. Seriously how is putting pictures of emaciated teenage girls in magazines good for anyone else's self esteem ? oh wait it's not.

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speechless

was how this left me.

pure thoughts xoxo

Middle ground...

so this will hopefully be somewhere between my last two posts, and provided that I am actually better now from whatever the hell it was that I got (either too much sun, a bug, the flu, IDEFK) this is mainly a Thank you. Not your usual thanks more like a realisation, that I think needs a celebration to match it, because all it is quite literally is the fact that me and all my friends and sixteen and alive. This goes out to anyone that wishes people would stop taking their lives for granted and just live them. And as much as I definitely cannot promise that I will stop contemplating the ways of life, good and bad,but I promise (with the exception of p.m.s) that I will try to stop letting every little thing that I think about in a day get to me....because if you put that into perspective that's a lot of things to piss you off in a day, Negative energy tends to ruin, well. Everything. Because it makes you concentrate on things you don't have but want. And forget about all of the parts of your life that make you smile.

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Mind Fuck XD

slight contrast from the last you heard from me but never the less worth it.

and then...

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Risks

''Risking our hearts is why we're alive, the last thing you want is to look back and think,

if only.''

just heard that and thought it was beautiful, all of the little things I aspire to live by are all packed into one stunning philosophy in that sentence. And it made me think...Where would we be without risks, without doing that stupid thing and wearing that orange war paint into town and telling that person just how amazing they are even though they might react by giving you a strange look and never speaking to you again, and planking in the middle of a street, and most importantly. Falling in love ?

They call it falling for a reason. Because if the whole you fall down doesn't accept you, it's not exactly easy to climb back out of something that deep.

I finally remembered that quote ''What is life if not to live it ?''

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God must hate my Legs right now...

so I get burnt, then I go dog walking and get stung to buggery all over my legs, NICE. Spent a while in there tennis court (alright for some) working on my serve...Actually quite good for reflecting on stuff. I'm babysitting tomorrow YAY XD it's in the morning as well so I won't be fighting the urge to be a grumpy sod when they get back.

Run out of brain juice now

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HOLY CRAP.

you will actually never guess what I managed to do....So I was as previously mentioned relaxing on a trampoline earlier. But the whole reason I was doing so is because someone left my denim shorts by the pool while we were in it resulting in them getting soaked on one side. And so I was just like ''Oh I know, I'll lie on my front for a bit in the sun to dry them out...'' next thing I know my legs are bright red. But only on the back so it looks even more weird.

GREAT.

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yay XD

just hit me today what everyone actually means by ''it's the best summer ever'' when i tell them that i've just finished my exams, because i went to work with my mum today and i'm still here but i is borrowin there mac book, at this currrent moment, but yeah just been swimming in there pool and then spent like a half hour lying on there trampoline, SO RELAXING, but yeah it was the just the kind of epic realisation of '' i don't HAVE to do anything.''

Seeya's

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Shiz'n'stuffz

Yeah I don't know either, I'm Kinda Hyper, worryingly so, but am so glad that I did not have a hangover this morning. Because seriously, I drank too much at redfest. Had work today but it was actually not to bad.

Actually addicted to this band now.

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REDFEST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

where to even freaking well start is beyond me. So I'll do it this way.

My main musical highlights have to be, in order of favourite, Modestep, the Qemists, pearl and the puppets, ryan keen, floors and walls, and I may as well mention lower than alantis even though I preferred everything listed. And they where good it's just that I got soaked while watching them. In the dark. With only a tent to go back to. You get the idea.

Main general highlights in order of how ever the fuck i can remember them have got to be first off the atmosphere at modestep (friday night) because it was fucking sick. then the atmosphere at the qemists (saturday night) because it was a fantastic fusion of drum'n'bass, dubstep and screemo metal, and no one was moshing because everyone including myself was ever so slightly if not very hungover. Other little things that happened really made the weekend as well. Like this gay guy with pink hair just goes (as he was walking past our tent) Oh my god ! is that a tatoo on your neck, because I had a transfer butterfly on my neck, and I said, ''no it's fake, and I love your hair by the way'' as it was bright pink, and he replied with ''oh ! thank you I love your eye make up''.

Okay now onto the juice, no quite literally I am actually going to try and remember what i have drunk this weekend. Friday; near enough a litre bottle of srong barcardi mix that I made. and a shit load of cider. Saturday, today, I don't fucking know day; can of cider with breakfast, as you do, more barcardi mix, and then in the space of an hour maybe less, 1 dark rum shot, three liquorice sambuca shots and then some straight whisky courtesy of Tom J LOL. So needless to say Qemists were freaking amazing with that buzz and it was after that me Rupert and David stumbled oh so gracefully back to outside our tent, and literally just fell on the floor and probably didn't move for a good half an hour and it was at this point that the second quite nice thing happened a guy to just came over to me while I was almost passed out on the floor tapped me on my shoulder so I would look up at him and said ''you are fit !'' a REALLY creative line I know but still I thought it was nice at the time. All in all a rather good weekend but lowlights if any are the following, my neck canes like a bitch, my head is pounding, I got really badly burnt, and I have to go to work in 2 hours.

So in the words of modestep, FUCK.

here's some links for any bands mentioned.

pearl and the puppets http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dOsYsaat08Q another good one is called kisses. They were good because as previously mentioned, the audience were all hungover.

modestep http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3r26y--evIw They were Epic live. From the front. Fuck yes.

Qemists http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRfWhBWDAsc&feature=related Not sure if this was the same as the live version but it's pretty similar.

Ryan Keen. actually watch this please.

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WWHHAATTTT ?

Who is reading/viewing this seriously just refreshed this page to find like 10 more views, I only have like four followers. WHAT IS GOING ON ?

Just walked to sainbury's and back. According to my ipod that's 212 calories, Yay I didn't spend the whole day dossing. that much...

gonna try marbling my nails now. Will see how it goes.

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So pretty...

Apologies for the random philosophical outburst that was yesterday's post. Because as much as I still agree with everything that I wrote, I would just like to say that just generally I am really not that depressive all the time.

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Sentimental.

Not even gonna say what I just did....Okay if you really wanna know, I did some drawing. Forgot how nice it was to draw without being told that every stroke you put on the page is wrong. Why is the following...

Why do our generation spend so long worrying about how to go about living the supposed 'best years of our life' and let the tiniest little details annoy them so much and purely by default be made to feel like if their life is different to their friends, that's it wrong. Or even worse still keep their feelings bottled up or confined to trustworthy friends for fear of being rejected and or humiliated.

It's just so wrong...Honesty is the best policy but depending on who it's to do with in your life it can make you feel like crap. In what twisted world do your true feelings for someone being known land you in an extremely humiliating situation with an end result of a once brilliant, but now ruined friendship ?

Oh wait.......ours.

fantastic.

Oh and before I forget.

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Well that sucks...

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART TWO. Twas epic, however that still sucks...

WE NEED TO DO TOWN SOON. coz as much as the beach and festivals and thorpe park and whale watching (optional) are all good fun... THEY COST TOO MUCH MONEY.

And I just miss all of you.....

list of stuff to do in town.

sit in waterstones and piss of the staff, also works with house of fraser.

planking, lieing down game, GETTING IN PEOPLE'S FREAKING WAY, WHAT DOES IT MATTER WHAT I CALL IT ??????

invisible zombies. ask Louise for those rules.

going up to a random stranger and asking them what colour their socks are. Not that I've tried that or anything...

this isn't in town but fuck it.

Telling people on Omegle To GET IN THE VAN !!!!!!!!

That is all.

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So let's recap...

got up at wait for it.........7.30 this morning i know it hurts even now. Walked the dogs, went to my Grandma's nursing home. Took her to have her hair done. bought her some sandwiches. got back cleaned everything I had time to in her little flat thing. Opened the door and the window because I swear that her room was running out of oxygen. Fussed a cat that was randomly outside her back door, it was so cute XD And then got back to mine, had a shower, and now hear I am getting ready to go to the cinema for Evan's Birthday. Not very stressful at all really.....(heavy sarcasm)

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LOVE

such epicness.

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the sound of the rain

against the open window

the smell of freshly baked cake

putting on a massive hoodie

smiley's in texts

playing your favourite song over and over again because you of course can't ever get bored of it.

things that put you in an unbreakable good mood.

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Was genuinely confused by this...

I mean I like the song but the video, what the hell...

Gonna go see Harry Potter tomorrow...woop woop. XDXXDXDXD

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I know...I know

the shame of it but I don't care

i like it....

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What I'm thinking won't fit for a title...

OMG BONFIRE WAS SO FRICKING GOOD AND THEN GUILFEST ALL FUCKING WEEKEND I'M SO running on fumes now,

got in...was thinking i need healthy food had cornflakes dry and an apple and feel so much better now. Okay highlights for me :

sonicboomsix

skindred

revoka

funeral for a friend

defiled...well what I saw of them.

Pete if your reading this click play on this now... Kaytei imagine them singing jessie j, coz it happened.

sorry if you don't actually like it that much...youtube was being crap.But if that's the case then try this. Kaytei these were the people that added dubstep as well at one point...

apologies if neither of these are liked :/

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Bloody Brilliant.

had the gang over for a BBQ so doing that again was the best night ever, coz everyone stayed over, such a chilled night, expect some analytical shit from me at some point soon xxxx just not now

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just for you

XD

epicness...i can haz pete adam kaytei, and dan staying round tonight yay :)

hmmmm I had a load to say on this post. And now of course now I can't think of any of it. ah well.

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Bad timing

seems to be how I live recently for example guess what time it is...midnight christ my sleeping pattern is fucked...so looking forward to the next couple of days so lets reveiw...all the gang sleeping round mine...with the exception of a few.then guilfest, should be freaking legend.

But the downside of this being the following...I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO !!!!!!!!!!! crap.

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I ate too much...

transformers was actually amazing...although that is coming from someone who likes iron man and other action stuffs. And it was so nice in town today coz for once there was no couples...I mean kaytei louise I love you but I miss having the guys as friends.

Oooh I nearly forgot to mention this and that would have been terriblé I was in hawkins bazar earlier before meeting the guys (actually looking for that things you mentioned kaytei, which I couldn't find) but I did see one little girl staring somewhat intensely at the penis pasta, and was actually forced to leave the shop to avoid having a rather large laughing fit for what would have appeared to be no reason.

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I also can haz

a white eyeliner...yay.

escape the fate's new album which granted I paid for, but still.

a new hair dryer. Mainly to go with my straightening brush.

some hair spray...And

I've now got out of work til tuesday..WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

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Arrgghhhhhh.

why did I think that eating chocolate icing on it's own would be good idea, okay it was damn good and I haven't eaten much else today, but ugh.

Why am I having a hard time believing that the water fight is actually happening ? Oh wait because buckets of water are falling from the sky. Holy crap it's cold in here.

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I can haz

my hair cut...looks quite cool. need to wash it though because it now itches like fuck. I have street later....woop woop XD okay still addicted to last friday night. IT'S SO GOOD.

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You knew this was happening...

lol.

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Series of very fortunate events

starting with the laugh from start to finish that was tilly's Birthday. followed closely by chillin in louise's pool for a bit.And then Had the girls over for the night, note no use of the word sleep. Feel like I should have a load more to philosophical about but my minds drawn a blank currently...ahh well.

peace.

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Loved it.

today was pretty fricking awesome. Mainly because not everyone was actually pissed up. And I forgot how genuinely epic Becca mann is. her snake bites looked lethal, I'm on about an inch out of her face point on both sides. Louise bought fay to the river and then she high jacked some dudes game of football with his mates. twas quite funny.

my brain flow is dead. Apologies.

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Why...

does work have to drag on and on and on and on. you get the point. God I love watching chick flicks as much as the next girl, but there's always that ''fuck, why can't I have that ?'' emotion that the happy ending that you always get tends to provoke. With me anyways.

So tilly's birthday bash should be good. Going as the resident in park babysitter But I'm not sure anyone else knows that.

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Chocolate.

maybe a slight over load today, having had the best chocolate ice cream EVER earlier in godalming while I was working. And also now sitting with tea, rich tea biscuits and chocolate icing. It's damn good OMG we're having a BBQ later as well. right I think the source of the 1/2 a stone I gained this year has been found. screw it i enjoy food to much to give it up.

But the work was pretty cool. Just getting kids to do this target practise game with a foam dart gun. The police thought it looked like a laugh so they had a go. That was rather entertaining to watch. Oh and one girl managed to get a dart stuck to a shop sign....I'm pretty sure it's still there. well half of it.

ooh I forgot to mention watched love and other drugs the other day. If you haven't seen it. watch it.

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