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Monday 28 July 2014

Are we all the same?

Comparing ourselves, comparing others, highlighting mistakes or behavior we disprove of in our own actions, thoughts or in others. Redefining ourselves over and over again until finally, we might just be happy, I always envied those people who walk around in a midst of despair, who seem to even then, let nothing affect them; They still smile simply because they're alive. Not me, that is of course far to easy, I am sat here, an over tired fragile, over sensitive mess worrying about my own perception, of love, happiness, intimacy and all that stuff that normally only seems to terrify men. See, I have this problem. I can't be emotionally attached to someone, and still be happy so it seems and I only thought that this was in the instance of my trust having been betrayed by said person involved, turns out it's not, it's when they're nothing but perfect.... near enough all the time as well.(I mean hey, we're all only human some people will always post emoticons as statuses on facebook every so often)

Truth be known, I hate cyber space, specifically texting, I wouldn't be here if I hated all of it. The main reason for this is that I do it far to much but never cease to be completely annoyed by how easily someone can misinterpret what you send them simply through lack of facial expression, vocal tone and if you're really flamboyant; Hand gestures. And the worst part, how easy it is to get carried way with channeling any emotion to enthusiastically, bizarely I have noticed that love and anger are the two most dangerous emotions to play with in this medium, when I get really bad I tend to just stop talking to whoever it is for fear of really offending them or starting an argument.

Also only realized how much being compared to someone actually can hurt in the right (or wrong) context. I did exactly that to someone a while back and having had it done back to me I am as sorry for it as I can possibly be.