wasuppppppppppppp?

wow. I hate too much. don't feel sick or anything but for lunch just now I had, lasagne with chips and garlic bread. HOLY CRAP. guilt. it's fine I just won't eat dinner. gahhhhh. something like 1112 calories that's just depressing for one meal.

moving on. also got some new ipod headphones, woooo. as well as apple shampoo, nom nom.

just watched IDEK 9 1/2 for the I don't even know...could easily be 10th time, love it !

TTFN

Yep, you guessed it.

there is a maths exam tomorrow, And I'm sitting on my floor with my laptop, a cup of tea, a digestive biscuit, and a toffee harvest cheweee bar (fuck off spell check that's the brand name)

which inevitably means I'm going to type about hopefully something interesting for a bit to avoid doing maths revision.

first topic: WTF.

okay aside from the 'how is that a topic' thing, hear me out. Okay so I got given a laptop. But what I may have ceased to mention is how I ended up with it. main basis; my nan and her husband, Jon went on holiday to Australia, and while they were there. Jon's dad died. obviously a harsh thing to happen to you while you're holiday because it makes it hard to enjoy things, anyway he died I'm told very peacefully In his sleep, which considering he had dementia was probably a blessing. I digress, he had three laptops I'm guessing in case one broke or whatever. And apparently one had already been promised to me. so in short, my nan's husband's dad dies, I get a laptop. I have nothing to say. (lies)

second topic: Uncertainty.

As I've always thought it was the source of all my problems, because it is. I thought it deserved at least a good paragraph. so. I'm 16, I've only lived for 16 years. Uncertainty is gonna be a big part of my life right? you know in pretty much every aspect and situation, makes sense the more you think about it, with self esteem and confidence issues-being unsure of yourself, with peer pressure-looking to others for guidance (and getting used). So it all links back to not knowing some things. About yourself, or other people. Or just anything. But something genius was put to me a couple of months ago. Will I miss it ? this point was put to me by an adult I should say But it really made me think, will I miss it ? maybe I will, or rather how do I know that I'm not going to miss that feeling of not having the faintest idea what to do about something. Or how to fix it, or how to tell them, or if I even should tell them. . .it goes on.

third topic: self love

always a good thing to have. Provided it isn't verging on being in love with one's self, that's just a little bit weird. And no one likes an egotistical person.

''you can't love another until you love yourself'' now as someone who does try to stick with this (and fail) I'm gonna find it difficult arguing against it. But here goes. Most of the entire teenage population are gonna have self esteem issues to do with something, I'm guilty of it And I know of others that are, But I've noticed that people by default are going to feel better about themselves if they've got a lovely other person in their life telling how beautiful they are, and how lovely they are to be around.This even by me cannot be denied, and sure there may not even be that much harm in it. But surely it becomes a problem when one person looks to another to receive self confidence.

Now I refuse to use the dreaded 'C' word after having finished all my english exams for now anyway, but that's basically what this is. (ha flossy is sleeping on my parents bed and she's soaked from her walk earlier LOL). You always want what you don't have, to an extent anyway.

okay I think that's it.

O&O

that was so smooth...

so yeah yesterday I thought today would be like properly HORRIBLE...but turned out to be not so bad, don't get me wrong work was still horrible. But it could definitely have been worse.

Anyway back to the title. so just finished work. All I wanna do is have shower. so shower goes on and is put to my usual temperature of 'nearly hot enough to make tea', I start wetting my hair and there is a sudden and extremely intense burning pain on my head. Which results in me swearing incredibly loudly several times And then thinking ahhhh crap. I've actually managed to with a full head of hair, burn my scalp, really ?

ahh well. was just about to say things could be worse but oh wait, could they really be worse than maths exam ? scan your brain and tell me one thing that you consider to be worse than a maths exam.

fixed my dress yesterday XDXDXD Yay.

O&O

Yet more retail therapy,

got the sunglasses form acsessorize that I think I've been wanting for around four months now.

they are the all of the sugary goodness that is in the world. LOVE.

as well as mpre new shorts and a top from TK max, woop woop. And yet more burger king. mmmmmmmmmm calories. Shopping is so therapy, it's should definitely be recognized.

argghhhhh. broke the strap on my new dress yesterday still need to mend it....And I have work tomorrow, and then a maths exam on monday...GREAT.

why god ?

O&O

lots of love...

a genuinely nice day, having said that, had it pros and cons such as wearing the most annoying dress possible in windy weather, getting slightly toasted, but it's already turning into tan so oh well, and running into a load of the broardwater lot, not brilliant, especially when they started throwing biscuits at us. WHYYYYYY ?

oh wait 'coz you is so gangsta lisnin to dubstep and jumping of the bridge, and throwin biscuits at us coz we is not speakin like cool init' retards no wonder they had no girls with them

watched X-men earlier, was well good.

wiped and glowing,

O&O

guess what I'm typing this on...

A LAPTOP....if this makes me shallow then I apologize, but i actually just got given a laptop for free and IT'S AMAZING...nan was having clear out and wondered if I like it...alright for some eh.

I'M ACTUALLY SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW !!!!!!! YEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPP !!!!!!!!!!

O&O

Good day...

went shopping, I'm sorry but retail therapy is so a recognized form of therapy, well if it's not than it should be. And there was.......SUNSHINE that always helps. And aside from near enough everyone around us being in a couple. was genuinely a good day.

So yeah this was my love horoscope today :

Risky business might land you in hot water. Before you make any big decisions, try thinking carefully about your words and actions and how they affect potential love interests.

well that's just great couldn't you ave been a little more specific . . .

oh wait it's a horoscope. meh

til next time.